Changes

After crying all the way to my mother-in-law's after work yesterday to pick up Mia; after tossing and turning all night even with the magic blue pill; after dry heaving this morning while getting ready for work, I decided some changes are called for.

While I have refrained from any work posts except in the most generally vague of ways, I have not been very happy there for a long time.  I like the people I work with but overall, it doesn't compensate for the negative aspects I deal with every day.

I have updated my resume and sent a few out.  We'll see what happens.  The economy is terrible here.  I dread going into another soul-sucking corporate environment, I don't do well in them, and I hope it will turn out to be a more laid back type of place.  I do have a few fairly easy to meet requirements on my end:

1. More money.  I haven't gotten a raise in over two years and I'm worth more than I am paid.  I don't expect caviar wishes and champagne dreams, but a little more in my pocket every week would do a whole lot for my self-esteem and my enthusiasm to get my ass out of bed in the morning.

2. No slamming doors and yelling at me, my fellow employees or anyone else who happens to be there.

3. Every once in a while, a tiny acknowledgment that I mean something, anything, to the company.  Signing your name on my paycheck doesn't count, since you don't do it anyway, I stamp it.  Realizing that my name is not emblazoned on company property and yours is and expecting me to be on call 24/7 falls in there as unrealistic, as well.

I haven't been on an interview in a long time.  And I admit, I   tried something different and I have tweaked my resume so that either I show that I have a sense of humor or I sound like a total asshat. 

I've cast the bait. 

Oh, and this is a big secret, I have not indicated at work that I am looking for a job.  So if you run into Boss the Father or Boss the Son, don't let on, okay?

Kay.  Thanks.

Comments

[Amy]

Wow. I thought you were happy at your job. Now you're in the same boat I'm in. Be careful, it's a bitch out there.

a tiny acknowledgment? What's that? you're talking to someone who works in a place that refuses to acknowledge Xmas, b-days or even anniversary of employment. We've never had a party, a gift or a thank you for anything.

We really should get together and co-miserate about our jobs. I think it could do us both a world of good.

[Michelle]

Hang in there, Lis. I know it's the pits right now, but this too shall pass. In the meantime, I advise you not to take ANY shit. From anyone.

[Dawn]

Lisa-
Good wishes headed your way. Good luck.

[Stevie]

Lisa,
just wanted to wish you lots of luck in finding a new job that you will be happier at.

[Heather]

Hey Lisa - in my pre-SAHM life, I "did" resumes for people and would be happy to give yours a look, if you'd like a second opinion on any of it. Just let me know! Hang in there - Heather